hold on

*sigh* at first i didnt hav anything to blog about, but then i checked my mail n now i do..

just heard dat a fren's fren is going for an abortion.. dun get me wrong, im totally against it n all but from the looks of it, she doesnt hav a choice.. so i guess all we can do is pray that it goes well, huh...

this is weird, i mean we hear about abortions n stuff all the time.. but this is different.. i nv really expected to noe someone who's actually going through it.. well, okay, so i dunno her personally but it's still close enough..

just a note to her : dun make the same mistake twice

why do fools fall in love

okay, i was really really bored n for once, i couldnt think of wat to blog about so.. anyway, somehow pok inspired me to blog about love (hehe think candy cane d:)

yeah so i went to askjeeves n typed what is love n i got this: -

Love
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Love has several different meanings in the English language, from something that gives a little pleasure ("I loved that meal") to something for which one would die (patriotism, pair-bonding). It can describe an intense feeling of affection, an emotion or an emotional state. In ordinary use, it usually refers to interpersonal love. Dictionaries tend to define love as deep affection or fondness.[1] In colloquial use, according to polled opinion, the most favored definitions of love include the words:[2]

life - someone or something for which you would give your life.
care - someone or something about which you care more than yourself.
friendship - favored interpersonal associations or relationships.
union - a synergistic connection, as in the perfect union of two souls.
family - people related via common ancestry, religion, or race, etc.

The concept of love, however, is a rather debatable one. Some deny the existence of love, stating that it is a recently invented abstraction. Moreover, approximately 13 percent of cultures, reportedly, have no terminology for the word love.[3] Others maintain that love exists but is un-definable; being a quantity which is more spiritual, metaphysical, or philosophical in nature, etc.

personally, i agree that love in undefinable too..

so when i hav my monash interview in aug (i think), they'll probably ask, why do you want to be a doctor? actually i dont have the answer for that myself.. all i know is that ive always wanted to be one since i was really little (five as far back as i can rmb) n ever since then, i just hav this passion for medicine (well, except eating them of course).. so i guess my love to be a doctor is in a way undefinable(?)

uhh i hope they wont like fault me on this cos it's really wat i think n it comes straight from the heart.

P.S. i was getting really sick of the other song so i thought id put this up to amuse ashwin n the rest.. hehe

i wanna travel through time...

i was bored, so i decided to read my old posts n i just realised dat.. my blog's over a yr old!! hehe..

happy belated bday blog!

n i just found out dat u've got the same bday as charlie's mum n *ugh* lisim.. haha jk bout the *ugh* part, i dun hate her anymore n she doesnt hate me either so i guess now we're just on some mutual agreement that we still dislike each other (?) but we wont have those childish, petty fights anymore..

n i just discovered dat once i go beyond 300 entries, i wont b able to view my old post through the post edit pg so my archive's back up again! just in case i need my old posts for reference? i don't know.. haha..

okay, enough digressing.. *sigh* back to work...

and i begin to believe

if i've got enough guts to pull this off, id hav to say it'll be the craziest thing i'll ever do in my entire life.. at least for now till i decide to do smth crazier? hehe

yeah i think i must be out of my mind to even think of it.. then again, dat's wat i thought when we sneaked baby into our rooms n it was all worth it.. baby wherever u are, i hope u're doing well n ur family loves u very much the way we did n still do (':

wish me luck ppl!!

now all i hav to do is muster all my courage n full steam ahead!!!

and the reason is you

i wish peanut cookies dun hav huge chunks of nuts in them.. u noe, kindda like, creamy peanut butter in a way.. haha since i cant find any other snacks in the hse, looks like i dun hav any other choice but to put up wif the nuts.. *sigh*

yeah so back to the reason i wanted to blog.. this entry's for you

"things don't always turn out the way you want them to, but they'll always turn out all right.."

got that quote from the au pair show on disney channel n i really liked it.. (:

even though i've always wanted to go to taylor's, you being there is kindda like a plus plus point u noe? haha

on the first few days i was at taylor's, i thought col was kindda fun but quite boring at the same time.. but then i met you. YOU made everything more exciting without even trying to.. i guess it's just cos you're naturally such a fun person (:

yeah, i liked the way drew barrymore put it in never been kissed, "he's the reason that you drag yourself out of bed every morning to go to high school" or smth along those lines.. cant really rmb.. it's been a while since i last watched the show.. haha.. the same goes for you except it's college, not high school..

n there's also another thing that i havent thanked you for.. if it wasnt for you, if you hadnt come over to our table to borrow justin's phone, if i hadnt joined you for break that monday, i wouldnt be close friends wif yuj n jas now.. i mean, otherwise we wouldnt hav met then n i wouldnt've gone up to asia club wif them.. n jas wouldnt've invited me to play pool wif them the next time, n this is getting too confusing even for me so im just gonna leave it here.. haha

i totally agree wif my mum - "God works in mysterious ways" ..so let's wait n see wat else fate has in store for us.. i love watching my destiny unravel in front of me.. u noe, when u realise how everything in ur life is really interconnected even though they may seem like two totally different n unrelated stuff at first, when u finally understand why certain things in life happened, why things are the way they were, why u meet some people n not others, n why u meet them at that time n not earlier or later..

haha.. yeah this sounds just like the five people you meet in heaven by mitch albom.. if u havent read it, u should.. it's a really meaningful book.. makes u think a lot about your life..

have you ever

WHY do i have to have, not ONE, or TWO (for dat matter) buT THREE sisters who are like, model daughters?! they make me look like the black sheep of the family... which i probably am come to think of it...

don't parents understand that the more they try to restrict you, the more rebellious u're gonna get?! i mean, poots is right.. sometimes when u're JUST about to go to ur room to study, n ur parents HAVE to choose that particular moment to say smth like, "stop watching the tv and spend more time studying!" u'd purposely watch the tv for another hour or so just to bug them..

i think my policy's pretty fair.. as long as i continue to do well in my studies, there's no reason why i should change my current lifestyle (which is pretty much do anything i want when i feel like it) right? which means, there's no reason for u to restrict me any further than u already do.. right?

haha.. as i was telling raof the other day, i guess i DO hav the cat genes more than i realise.. it's much more than the colour of the eyes (although mine are fake) or well, my nickname (dun ask), it's also how i behave.. cats only come home for dinner.. other than that they do whatever they please and go wherever they want.. haha see the similarity?! im pretty fine wif staying at home but just not EVERYDAY.. id be bored to tears.. wonder how the agrophobic ppl stand it..

it's not a dream... remember us...

whoa when i said i wasnt going to sleep last night, i thought i was exaggerating.. little did i noe i would actually end up doing it.. haha.. but it was okay, since i had zach braff for company (: n work to keep my occupied...

had no idea how i was going to last through the day cos usually i'd b struggling to keep awake till 1500.. apparently i wasnt the only one.. dillon slept from like 0000 - 0100 then stayed up all the way.. xu yen lagi hebat!!didnt even nap at all!! wow.. pui fook man

was super tired when i reached college.. not sleepy, just mentally n physically exhausted from working through the night n my eyes were like super dry.. sorry eyes!! hehe

the day passed fairly quickly n surprisingly, i didnt doze off in any classes.. then i received an sms dat made my day better! hehe it says : TQ 4 responding to our offer sent via sms on 6/3/06. Were sorry, were unable to process your request. As a token, well credit 500 free SMS on 13/3/06 for you. - Hotlinkgift Muah haha.. 500 free smses out of nowhere!! hahaa in case u were wondering, on the 6th, they sent me an sms saying smth like, i can reg on the 7th of march to choose any day from 8th to the 14th (i think) to hav 50% discount on all smses to 012/017.. not dat it makes much of a diff since my smses r like, 5 sen or 1 sen per sms depending on whether dat person's on my activ5 or not.. anyway, yeah, i tried registering on the 7th but i was so stupid, i didnt realise dat it says dial so i smsed instead -.- then when i rechecked my inbox on the 8th, i realised wat i did so i thought wat the heck.. might as well give it a shot.. haha luckily i did eh, or i wouldnt have gotten my free smses which i so dun deserve since it's entirely my fault.. haha

oh yeah, yesterday when i was researching for my physics review, i came across this

Imaginary time is indistinguishable from directions in space. If one can go north, one can turn around and head south; equally, if one can go forward in imaginary time, one ought to be able to turn around and go backward. This means that there can be no important difference between the forward and backward directions of imaginary time. On the other hand, when one looks at "real" time, there's a very big difference between the forward and backward directions, as we all know. Where does this difference between the past and the future come from? Why do we remember the past but not the future?

dat sentence in particular is really cute so i put it on my msn msg thingy.. it was really a rhetorical qn but i received an answer this morning n it was so beautiful, i just HAD to blog about it

it said "because we have no memories of the future - nothing to hold us back, nothing to cherish; so the past is all we have"

sorry! i noe there's a missing part but im too paisehh to ask for it again.. hehe but this alone sounds good already, dun u think?

since im damn sleepy now, i shall stop here..

oh n here's the link to the long awaited photos!! gosh.. took me hrs to resize n upload ALL the photos.. nearly died doing it.. -.-

no sleep tonight.. literally

blehh cant believe i "napped" for like, 4 hrs straight... >.< dat means i wont b able to sleep tonight cos ive got phy review, bio report n 3 days worth of math to hand in tmr... ): n to do my phy review, ive gotta finish reading 72 pgs from a brief history of time n so far ive only succeeded in completing 4 pgs.. hahaha eep! better go do hw now!

a place in time

mann it was raining SOOO heavily just now.. i mean, SERIOUSLY.

jas n i had the mt kk meeting at 1500 but we ended at 1400 today so naturally we went to asia for an hr :P since both of us didnt hav lunch, we went to mcd's to grab a bite before the meeting.. when we got there, it started raining but lin-dy was rushing us to come back for the meeting so we decided to take our chances in the rain.. just as we stepped out, the wind started blowing like mad n the rain was whipping our faces n everything, AND there were like, branches flying EVERYWHERE!! it was mad, i tell you..AND COLDDDDDDD....

so we decided to seek shelter in starbucks (not dat it made much of a difference since we were quite soaked by then.. :/ ) yeah back to the story, i was clutching my ice cream cone while running in the rain so by the time we got to starbucks, my ice cream was like, wet n melted. the weird thing was, there were like, tiny pieces of ice in it.. i was like, HUH?! why got ice in my ice cream wann but i thought it probably came wif the ice cream somehow so i ate it..

after like, 15 - 20 mins, jas left cos her dad came to pick her up :( didnt wanna b alone so i returned to asia to look for yuj.. ppl all around were looking at me like i was mad to even be outdoors in the first place.. haha n gosh, it was pouring so heavily, there were like mini waterfalls at the steps.. haha so cute, i wanted to take a pic of it.. (: when i got into asia, i was like, drenched from head to toe.. some people actually started clapping n cheering when i entered, it was hilarious.. haha

then at the bus stop, shamay told us dat we JUST went through a hailstorm.. yup ladies and gentlemen, u guessed it!! i was eating pieces of hail without knowing it.. ewwww.... hahaha...

saddd.. if only i realised it was a hailstorm, i would've actually stopped to savour that moment.. hahha it was soo cool.. figuratively n literally.. hahah but it was raining so hard, i guess we wouldnt've been able to see the tiny pieces of ice flying around anyway...

there's a chance i could change my mind.. but i wont...

finally a chance to bloggg... been meaning to all week but ive just been to lazy to get down to it so it's like, all stored up in my brain... gotta get it outttttt!! haha.. shall start wif mon..

Monday, 27th Feb

had chem test from 1500 - 1600

since it's our first common test which doesnt clash wif our lessons, we didnt noe we had chem class on that day.. i mean, we only had 2 other tests (phy n math) before this n on those days, we didnt hav lessons for the subject dat we were tested on.. so it's only natural for us to assume the same goes for chem, rite? hehe

wat a shock we had when mrs lin told us the next day that we actually had chem class.. haha poor mrs lin actually waited an hr for us in the lab!! since she's new like us, she doesnt really noe how the taylor's system works.. after the first 10 mins, she thought dat G10 had a change in schedule or smth, so she checked with the head of chem but he told her dat we didnt so she should go back n wait.. which she did.. after waiting for another 10 mins or so, she looked for our mentor, mrs kee, but mrs kee couldnt help her either.. n she went back to the lab to wait AGAIN.. 15 mins passed n no one showed up so she went to the SAM office n the person in charge there told her to give the number of the first person on our class list (albert) n to wait in the lab.. after like, 10 mins, the SAM person called her to tell her dat she couldnt contact albert n by dat time, the 1 hr's already up.. soo... class was cancelled!! hahaa

luckily mrs lin's so sporting or i bet our whole class'll b in trouble.. hehe -.-

Tuesday, 28th Feb

had bio test.. for some weird reason, i couldnt rmb anything about the test after completing it.. i mean, when dinesh n the rest asked "wat did u write for this qn?" as soon as we got out, my mind was completely blank so i was like, "uhhhhh....?!" uh-oh... dat SO isnt a good sign...

Wednesday, 1st March

caught you smoking today.. i just cant express the disappointment i felt then.. it was like, somebody i trusted backstabbed me... you said you stopped but how far it's really true, i dont know.. all i know's dat if i see you doing it again, im gonna find it hard to trust you the way i did..

Thursday, 2nd March

yuj n i had our belated vday date!! hahaha actually, she was supposed to watch big momma's hse 2 wif her fren n im supposed to b the one tagging along but he couldnt make it so it was just the two of us.. reached gsc at 1500 n the movie started at 1445, so we decided to pick another movie instead.. poots was just telling me bout fd3 the day before n i was like, "hey, why dont we watch fd3 instead?" since i wanted to watch it for a while now n yuj agreed so we watched dat instead.. the movie totally RAWKED as expected.. i mean, sure the story revolves around the same thing, someone had a premonition n tries to prevent a freak accident from happening, saving a few lives in the process but then the survivors start to die horrible deaths, one by one..

yuj n i in the cinema

ryan merriman is sooo cute!!

movie ended about 1800.. yuj n i went shopping while waiting for her dad to pick her up.. we came across this stall selling really cute badges so we got a few for both of us n jas n dinesh.. (: yuj left about 1900 so i went to look for wen cos i said id hang out wif her n we waited for her mum in kiz sports & gym till around 2200.. wen's kind kind manager let me in even though im not one of the staff n i didnt hav a kid wif me.. played wif joe (wen's fav kid) cos he was the only one left n the other staff members.. i even got to go on the slides n bouncing castle, it was soooo fun! haha.. n u're rite wen, joe's adorable! n he noes a lot too, for a kid his age...

Friday, 3rd March

isa had this brilliant idea - that we should all dress up in our sch uniforms, after seeing ashwin wore his last mon.. so a bunch of us did n it was really cool... everyone who walked past were staring at us n giving us weird looks.. haha did i mention i loved being in the limelight? hahaha some teachers were like, why are you wearing uniform?! haha.. n during break, i went to asia club to look for yuj n i kindda expected someone to throw me out (finally a chance to show off dat im 18!! haha) instead, the guy asked me if i wanted to play pool -.-

went there again after col cos we wanted to play while waiting for the bus to come but the place was PACKED! :( not even a table available.. then the indian guy (my fav guy) who works there came over n he was like, "budak kecik tak boleh masuk" while giving me this wide grin.. but he's familiar wif us soo yeah.. haha..

Saturday, 4th March

just chilling at home.. hadnt done dat in the longest time.. funny thing is, im choosing to do so on the week dat i dun hav any tests (unless u count bio quiz but dat's not assessed) hehe.. maybe it's got sumthing to do wif the fact dat my parents went down to melaka wif my 2 elder sis so ive got the tv to myself n no one to nag me ;)

had a movie marathon n i even slept on the couch last night.. haha n the result was a sprained neck.. ouch..

P.S. will upload the pics soon cos my brilliant mum took the camera down.. n charlie, i dun c why YOU should get mad at me for watching fd3.. i mean, i said i'd watch it again wif u, didnt i? n u did the very same thing to me last yr when u watched hp4 wif wen when u guys said u'd watch it wif me when i come back.. i mean, i actually rejected the offer to watch wif my other frens cos i promised u guys first..

anyway,
CONGRATS JAS, FOR PASSING UR DRIVING TEST!!! (:


gosh this must be my longest entry n i havent even uploaded the pics yet!! so i guess dat'll make it my longest entry wif the most pics!! -.- haha.. took me hrs to finish this..

oh yes, pics of last fri's dinner click here http://community.webshots.com/album/548248395unYkFU